feeling upset day

its just so hard i had a fight with my friend.she is the greatest friend Ive ever had.i was thinking about my ambition n i guest its not a doctor but a lecturer.this is because im so scared when i see a wound or blood.i just cant stand it.another thing is i also like to draw but my drawing is so not nice.at this time i dont feel happy at all.i just feel upset about the fight.its the worst fight with her.i cant tell who she is i know it will humiliate her i guest so.but she is more nicer then any other friends.even my mom says that.n i know that is also true what my mother says.i am know grouping money for buying this diary.its a very cool thing you know.i guest i can have it about a month.